I haven’t been posting a lot here (although I have been posting on my personal blog recently). I have been thinking about how to be most effective.
I can recite or post a million statistics or stories of horrible atrocities. Sad pictures of children who need a mommy and a daddy. Awful realities of what it’s like to live in the 3rd world while we enjoy a rather lovely 1st world experience.
No matter how poor (which believe me, I am poor) we are or how hard times can get, I still have a home. I still have indoor plumbing and running, clean water in my home. I still have heat in the winter and a/c in the summer. I have a car. I have food and can easily obtain more, even if I can’t afford it — only 2 blocks to the nearest food bank. I have parents who still help me when I need it and I always have had loving parents who made sure that I knew how loved I was.
I get weary of defending my passion for Africa and the orphans there. I care about ALL orphans, but God has placed a burden for Africa on my heart. It’s hard to stand alone for a long time. It’s hard when money is tight and you try and you try and you try but it doesn’t happen.
It’s just hard. But I am learning that relying on God and His strength can renew you. And not exhaust you. And it’s worth it.
But I want to be effective. Not exhausted. So, I am figuring this out — little by little, step by step. And in God’s time, it will happen. Meanwhile, I am going to pray and advocate and do whatever I can for these precious children.